~* kyk *~

 

finally,i din't see him 17 days already..

although it's just two weeks more,we seem like two strangers.

if ask me my feeling for this relationship,i...don't know how to explain MY FEELING!

it concludes some SOUR..some SWEET..so SUPRISED..some TORTURE..some SADNESS and some TEARS...

there're so tough for me to get rid of all these..

our distance will be farer and farer if i let time to pass like this!

he will go there soon.

what can i say or do?

i can't voice out a single words..

ahhhh....

why every time i will in love with the one loving other people so much?

hiaz...

who can help me!!!

the disappointed thing is...

even he also don't understand me...my feeling...my heart!

everyday i miss him so much!miss him like crazy..

BUT..he will never know!

i'm always being left out by HIM...

i really so sad...so down..

i tell myself again and again.

he's not my beloved and  my forever love..

i'm not suppose to be so stubborn.

i know that!

but i can't!even though i tried so many times before!

really don't know what to do!

all seem so wrong again!

 

 

 

today,i was waiting at the bank for almost 1 hour coz of her..

but i din't complaint anything at all!

just doing her friend's thing,i was waiting at there for 1 hour,

am i stupid??

i think i never waiting someone for so long so patiently.

if not because of her,i was at home resting already.

why i was so stupid fetched her and her friends to 3 places?

it's hot outside..

my hands and legs almost get sunburn!!

hiaz...

i am so sad!

why i thought of 'P B'after she said she wanted the book?

how much i hope i was wrong..

but just herself know,who is the one inside her heart.

i know i can't be the one anymore..

but i am willing to stay beside her...

i just wanna know she is safe,happy,health..all the while!

then i am content..

[ pig...my beloved forever! ]

 

suddenly,i realise that i got almost 4 days din online ady!

izit bcz u less online d so i oso lazy to online?

actually i very very miss u!

our distance are farer and farer...

sad!

i m tryin so hard to stop missing u ah!

but i failed!

i had done 1 stupid thing just to test can i 4 gt u!

so soli to sum1 ah!!!!!

haiz haiz haiz...

duno la!!!!!!!

wrong wrong wrong!

the wrong 1 always me...........

sad sad sad sad sad!

 

badly sick!

what i want,still the same.

i love you...

how much i hope you are mine forever!

is you,i knew what is LOVE..

is you,i knew the feeling of missing someone..

is you,my life became colourful..

is you,i smiled happily..

all is you!

but....

where are you???

i miss you so much!

i hope i can see you every hour,every minute and every second..

you are my world.

perhaps you are beside me,i willing to give up everything!

because,i got you,i am more than enough!

but,who can help me tell you..

my heart is belongs to you?

you never know that i love you so madly,

because your heart is thinking about the other one..

the one you LOVE deeply...

pig,i had tried hundred of times be tough wothout you,

but finally i lose!

i can't stand up without your love.

you are gone,i am sick!

well,why the fact must be like that?

izzit fair?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

....

what i am thinking now??

what i am doin now?

who mess my life up?

who made me lied and lied again?

who broke my heart?

who made me feel so lost?

who made me cry and cry non stop?

who makes me love..so much?

who do i care so much?

who do i miss this moment?

all the things.....

just around you!

how come?

oh my god!

i really mad already...

who can tell me how much i love you?

who can predict how long i will love you?

tell me.....

好不容易,我从希望里走出来了..

我不再期待!

不要再让我存有希望,好吗?

我会崩溃掉!

好不容易逼自己,不要和你说话,不要见到你,不要烦你,不要找你,不要打给你!

 

 

 

lady lady one more try